resting in a place of uncertainty

The journey toward my summer internship in New York City began back in the fall of 2011. As I considered the different opportunities for the upcoming summer, God laid it on my heart to apply for an internship with Mission to the World. 


There were some obstacles that almost prevented me from completing the application, but after much prayer and a healthy amount of uncertainty, the Lord allowed me to see it through. The waiting period after I sent in the application s t r e t c h e d me, and the application/interview process taught me a lot about myself. 


I questioned my motives and my heart. 
I questioned whether this was really something God was really calling me to do or not. 
At times, fear attempted to take hold.
Fear said I would be unable to raise the necessary funds for the entire summer. 
Fear said I would be unable to do the work well and 
Fear said I was making a mistake doing mission work instead of getting a job for the summer.
But fear lied to me.


In early February, I was officially accepted to MTW's New York City summer internship. My heart was overjoyed! The Lord opened this door and allowed me the opportunity to participate in his work right here in New York City. But what if my efforts are not enough to make this internship a reality?


Then God came and told me... Bethany, your efforts are not enough.
But He is.


I learned how to pray dangerous prayers.
"God, may I trust you completely."
"God, grant me opportunities to trust you."
I also came to an understanding that sometimes the hard things, the waiting times, and the feelings of uncertainty are God's answers to those prayers.


As of now, God has blessed me with $2000 in support.
THANK YOU. 
Thank you to those of you who have responded to God's call and supported me financially.
I am blown away by God's magnificent grace with each response I receive.
My goal is $4700.
MTW requires I have the full amount two weeks before I leave for the field. 
That is in 3 weeks.


Thank you for your prayers.
Thank you for you love. 


Resting in a place of uncertainty is hard but it is beautiful.
God will provide and has provided in bountiful love.


To God be the glory.